this is proably the last blog post i will every do on this blog, the samester on this class is over and i will not have blogging class after this date, therefore there is no need for me to contiue this blog, i would like to say i will contiue it anyway and i might post things here and there but al in all i most likly will forget all about this blog and for good reson, no one is out there listening to me, thats the truth no one cares and why should you im just a 16 year old boy from paisly writeing his life and feeling into a web page, people will come and go but no-one will stay and thats the truth in life, i'm not one to be very open with my feelings and this is due to years of perfecting the art of reclucing memories, i have a very dark past which if you were intellegent you could probably pick up on in this blog through reading between the lines of my posts, evryone writes about what they truely feel, wther it's through a story about a boy who hate christmas or a complait about smoking there are clues to who i really am instide, i dont pretend to be spechal or unice, i arrived on this plant and made absolutly no impression on it, the sun did not rise from the south the day i was born and why should it nothing chages i live and i will die and there will be nothing to say that i exsited on this earth and that is probaly for the best, there have been milliouns of people before me and there will be millions after, i am a spek on the tapestry of the world who will one day be ssimply brussed off, no-one really care who i am , or where i come from because i will not be here forever, no one should care about me, im not intersting, i dont look for pitty or sympathy or empathy and i dont like it, shit happens , sometimes people get an unfair amount of shit happen to them, sometimes people live in hell and have to suffer it day in day out and there's nothing they can do about it, but after a while one learns to taste the bitter as the sweet, the idea that someone whould make any impression on the world whatsoever is ludicrouse, people forget and why not why should they rember a rather depressed person , i cannot simply open up to people, people need to relise for themselfs and if they dont understand then so what, who gives a fuck what anyone els thinks, acepance is something evryone craves no matter who you are, i dont care how much you protest and say you dont you do evryone whats to be beloved by people and unfortunatly some people just arnt, some people have a very depressing life but put on a brave face evry day because some people have to stay cheery throughout, somepeople are the guys evryone els gose to with there problams and whatnt to tell them about there horrid life but you know what , so people do have horrid lives so get over yourselfs,=s guess what you get to go round a friends house when you want to and you get to socilise with poeple cos the friend you soclise and go out with live 2 minuets from your house, i live 400 miles from my friend who i soclise with, do you never wonder why i'm on fbook on fridays and saturday nights no do you buggry, i've to listen to you rattle on that you cant see people cos there ill, i dont see people cos it would take my 8 hours to see people, never ask how i'm doing never fucking care you just want someone to bitch to when you think life is tough, and i am not saying people have the hardist lifes ever but guess what they have a fucking harder life they you, and i'm not complaining about my life because i get on with it, ok i may not be able to deal with it in the perfect way but i have my way of dealing with it, some people would say that my way is bad but fuck you cos it's the only way i can, so dont pasronise me and dont sympathy me cos in years to come i will die and i will be erased from this world, the day i die the sun will still rise from the east and set in the west.
Nam Myoho Renge Kyo
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